I want to be a super hero.
I want to single handedly save my family, the earth, the damned, the wayward, the sick, and the hungry all while stirring my compost bin, and monitoring my energy usage. Is that too much to ask?
I want to be a doctor, healer, lawyer, advocate, engineer, carpenter, chemist and alchemist. I want to achieve the perfect balance of holistic and scientific.
I want to speak my mind, but in a way that changes opinions, not hardens them. I want to be heard, but I don’t want to be a loud mouth, or a doom sayer.
I want to use all the ingenuity, genius, and talent that God has bestowed on humans, while at the same time conserving, protecting and loving the earth.
I, I, I, want, want, want. I am a fool. Jon told me that he was listening to a preacher. The preacher said that his father told him, “You can’t do two things at the same time and do either of them well.”
Maybe, just maybe, the balance that I want so badly doesn’t come from my doing this or that, one thing or another. Maybe it comes from doing what I do best. Maybe I have never known exactly what my best is, because I have bogged down my heart with goals I was never meant to achieve. By trying to achieve everything, I have finished nothing.
Webster defines balance in several ways.
When I read over these I get the sense that balance is a heck of a lot of work to appear still.
Maybe, the goal is peace.
Definition of PEACE
Ah, yes. Much better.
Now, don’t get me wrong. I am not going to “peace” through life. Not gonna do whatever I want because I have a “peace” about it.
It’s time to put the spandex and cape where it belongs.